Monday, April 11, 2011

Between Harrassment and Apologize

Since I have been involved in various kind of events with my job position, Bacaan Doa is a must for every opening speech in ceremony. Without feeling hesitated I would raise my hands while baca doa, although this act is always an shocking moment for those who sit beside me.

Of course I can be stay put and pretend that I am not related with Bacaan Doa, but in the name of Allah SWT I still raise my hands and ignore those who look at me with bemused face.

"Masa itu majlis jalan oh... Kita suruh Ikhwan pergi depan baca doa lah. Angkat tangan itu macam dan bla bla bla..."  She raise hands and pretend like muslim who baca doa.

Laughing and harassment from my colleagues make me feel insulted. I don't want to mention their race and religion because it's due to their own personality problem. I tried to calm down myself and give them a smile, perhaps? I never been to live alike others, thus there's a lot of prejudice and criticize waiting aside to smash me hard on my face anytime. Sure it's pain but I am already feel numb with the same situation for many times.

Also, I was went to Kursus Jabatan at Putrajaya.
Unlike other kursus, it specially aimed to train discipline and attitude as Gov Servant. So every muslim who attend this Kursus need to be Solat Jemaah for every prayers. I was wearing Baju Melayu and Kopiah and walking by non muslim as if nothing happen. I pray to Allah SWT and Zikir in solat Jemaah, feeling calm and peacefully in my unstable heart which moves like wave of sea. Well... at the same time I was saw the rude colleague watching me go in and out of Surau and only God know what she gossip with her friends, I tried to comfort myself and keep thinking that it's not a big deal.

While attending kursus I was sharing room with 3 muslim colleagues. Well I guess may be I am the only one chinese male at there... This is the room that I was going to spent with for one week.

At next two morning, I woke up at 5.30AM and go for my Subuh prayers. I also waken up those muslim colleagues who still asleep, I just don't want they feel disturbed that why I went out silently. Untill next few days, a not so friendly Malay Colleagues suddenly tell me this : " Ikhwan, saya ingin memohon maaf."

"Kenapa?" I was shocked with this sudden apologize.
"Sebenarnya saya ni orang yang Racist. Saya tak berapa suka bergaul dengan orang yang berbangsa cina.. Jadi saya ingin memohon maaf kepada kamu dengan apa yang saya telah buat sebelum ini."

I was shocked.
Well he is not really offended me,  just not talked with me even a word and act like I was not existed. Untill now I still not understand why he give me an apologize. However after that we did chit chat like friends untill the Kursus finished.

There's so many different type of people I have to deal in my life.
I never keen on revenge what they insulted me or asking anyone to agree that I am a serious muslim. I just want to live on the path of Islam silently, peacefully... It doesn't matter for me whenever I receive harrassment or apologize, I never put so much hope on humans that never know what will happen next at tommorrow. We all are just servants of Allah SWT no matter what skin colour we have or what is our religion status.

I raise my hands and pray to Allah SWT.
Only to Him I bowed and pray, only to Him I am going back.

Katakanlah: “Sesungguhnya sembahyangku dan ibadatku, hidupku dan matiku, hanyalah untuk Allah Tuhan yang memelihara dan mentadbirkan sekalian alam.

(Al-An’am : ayat 162)


  1. ...Allah menjadikan manusia dan jin semata-mata untuk, usah ambil kisah keadaan sekeliling terutama kepada mereka yang belum mengetahui....dan terus berdoa minta ALLAH jauhkan diri kita drpd segala yang tidak baik terutama sekali minta ALLAH jangan cabutkan IMAN kita....

  2. studioukm is right bro.I think you did well, it sure does hurt but hey, thats reality. It sucks, I know. But at the end of the day, thats what makes us stronger kan? Peace be upon you, brother.

  3. Assalammualaikum Sdr. Ikhwan,

    1. “Wahai manusia, sesungguhnya Kami menciptakan kalian dari laki-laki dan perempuan, dan Kami menjadikan kalian berbangsa-bangsa dan bersuku-suku agar saling mengenal. Sesungguhnya orang yang paling mulia diantara kalian adalah orang yang paling bertaqwa di sisi Allah. “[al-Hujurat:13].

    2. "banyak udang banyak garam" --> "banyak orang banyak ragam"

    3. Tak kenal maka tak cinta :)

    Rugilah diri mereka yang tidak mahu mengenali dirimu dan insan lain seadanya. :)

  4. assalamualaikum w.b.t.,

    Allah Maha Melihat segala yg anta lakukan. keep up your faith in Him. don't ever lose hope or give up on Him or He will give up on you.

    hang in there akhi.. rabbuna khaalik wa rabbuna yusahhil(moga Allah memelihara dan permudahkan sglnya buat anta)


  5. assalamualaikum saudara,

    please be strong. i admire your courage and steadiness in facing the challenges in your life from time to time. we should not fear what people think about us as what Allah thinks about us is all that matters. i face the situation like this many many times. in fact i was once harassed by one non muslim for trying to help him understand Islam. in the beginning he came like someone needing help and longing for 'Hidayah'. there i open my arms and later he left due to family obstacles. and he said bad things about me as well. Only Allah knows why he did that... it is truly hurtful but i can only leave it to Allah. i did my best with all the sincerity, loving and caring i have but at the end he returned me that badly. wallahua'llam.

  6. studioukm :

    Benar.. Semoga Allah SWT kekalkan Iman kita..

  7. Sakinah Rosli :

    Yes, every difficulty do make us feel stronger to face everything.. Peace be upon you too..

  8. yongzu @ 9W2YZU :

    Manusia hidup bermasyarakat tetapi malangnya kebanyakan orang masih mencaci dan menfitnah satu sama lain.. Bukanlah suku-suku yang ada di atas dunia ini dibeza-bezakan sebaliknya semua seharusnya bersaudara..

  9. Liana :


    Yup everytime when I face difficulties only to Him I pray and ask for help, only Allah SWT is the one who can save me.

  10. lina :

    Family can be an obstacle in getting know more about Islam. Especially when a lot of negative cases happening at Malaysia.

    However that's not your fault. It can be a first few step he walk towards Islam even he break your heart now, Hidayah come from the way that we can't predict. What we can do now is just pray to Allah SWT that he may accept Islam one day too.

    To be honest, I was struggling too in religion issue, until one day I realize Islam the the righteous one.

  11. Salam brother meow, I truly understand how you feel when being misunderstood by others,as for me my case is that just because i generally look like a Malay although I am not Malay, I am often being looked at one kind even by those who are Muslims themseleves,I look like so naif when I cant potrait myself as a perfect Muslim.The pressure comes when why those who are born Muslim arent being judged in such a way, and who are they to judge me when they know nothing abt time goes by,Insya Allah I start to get use to be a silent Muslim yet work my way to be a better one..

  12. walaikumsalam sis nur ain meow.

    Sometime I wondering being muslimah is much easier than muslimin, Just wear tudung then everyone will be look at me like normal muslim not "saudara baru". Especially my face is 100% pure chinese + sepet.

    However, we always care about what people judge about us with their little knowledge, but we often forgot that only Allah SWT judge us in everything we did.

  13. YAKINLAH hanya kepada ALLAH SWT....hope people with open their eyes and find the right...
    sentiasa ingat bahawa nikmat yang paling besar ialah ISLAM..dnt be shy and proud of it!!!!!


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