My thoughts are temporary jammed.
There are a lot of thoughts stuck in my mind and I am still can't arranging them out.
Writing fiction stories would be much easier, no logical plot and flew away with my imaginations.There was even a joke about "ghost" is the most easily drawn image, because no one know how ghost really looks like.
Whenever I was try to write something out, there will be people who asking me misleading question. The most typical case would be Jihad.. Even if I am trying to convince more about Islam, their unbeatable conclusion is : "You must be brainwashed."
That's the challenges to become reverted muslim, everyday have to keep on study Islam knowledge as a protection for my Iman. The more knowledge I learn, the larger of world turn out to be. Eventually I have been found out I am just chasing my tail.
Yup, chasing my own tail...
Because I was keep on finding answer in specific question, after answered they throw away another doubt to confuse my thought. There is no "doubt" in Islam, what turn out to be doubt is due to their intensive statement in manipulating the right become wrong. While reading through al-Quran they intend to look for keyword "war" or "peperangan", then they using their horrible skill to transform them into "Holy War" or terrorist theory.
I stopped and stand still, trying to look for their hidden intention.
Who is behind the scene? Why Islam is their target? Where they spread the misleading statement?
Who set the fire?
Still reading and rearranging my mind.